Maybe

- Tuesday, December 9, 2008 12:00 PM

Maybe i expected a lot from life

I hoped that my hard put efforts would someday fruit

In the end i got nothing. Almost as good as nothing.

I have pretty much lost my beleif in efforts.

I have a stronger opinion that "whatever happens, happens for good" is NOT acceptable or logical and in my case not possible either.

I strived and strived and really did strive for two things in the past 3-4 years. Put in a lot of hard work and persistence..

Eventually i almost got both things the same day... One, i love the way my efforts resulted. 

But with fate and turn of things i cant take it and cant go ahead with it.

Such a loss...Second, i dont really like what's fallen in my kitty. I see bad future going ahead with it. 

I see me losing a lot of things i like. I see Me losing Me completely.

But as fate will, i will be getting it and maybe living with it for sometime to come untill faith and patience and losing has had its toll.

Untill then I may not know the new me...Others may not know the real me...And maybe I will never be Me ever again....Maybe